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Welcome To Hell Is For Children Pat Benatar They cry in the dark, so you can't see their tears They hide in the light, so you can't see their fears Forgive and forget, all the while Love and Pain become one and the same. Now I'd done my best with the all the rest but I could never really forgive myself for this one. I was mean to her (My Mother) I was mad at her and yes I had convinced myself that she was bad, mean, but I also had a conscience. And of course I was pretty much layered with all these new responsibilities I had never had before but it was her that had always stepped in there for me (good or bad ) all the way, all I had to do was ask her and she did, she did her best to try to help and understand me. Now I didn't really catch onto this until I had started my own little melon patch which I swore up and down I was never ever gonna have (children) funny huh. I was never was gonna be like my mother neither, hum funny again. But in real honesty I never really did think this world was all that great a place to be bringing children into and I guess I changed my mind, because buy the time I was 28 I wanted my own little melon patch and oh boy I thought I was ready, I thought I'd be able to protect and care for them. Now this goes why back to when I was taught to take care of my Grandmother yep she was the first one ( In training) then it was my mother an oh boy this one I resented, I won't go into the baby sitting but I found myself running as soon as I could get done with all that housework, bullshit, bitching, screaming and *hi*. Marriage and kids this was the last thing on my list > guys that was anther thing anyways that's the way I felt at thirteen all the way up thru 18. I learned to do what I had to do, never did run away, graduated and at eighteen moved out right away. Now I'm not so sure, but I think > I had just gotten this new job and was moving out, then ho hum bummer. Here comes mom home from the hospital from another one of her surgeries > and now a train wreck and it's time to take care of your bother too it was the 5th and 6th vertebra'. You see he spent two years at Highland View "quadriplegics" I won't tell you all about the terrible things one finds in this type of situation. But people who don't do well tend to dwell on the dying and me I had all these things going on, but I never could or ever did leave em 2 times a day I was at that house and if not three and then there was the hospital visits go figure??? But let me get back to my mother. My mother in the 70’s was put back together with titanium plate’s, nuts and bolts was the name this thing and my brother who became quadriplegic in 76 was hit by a train. While the Dr’s practiced the medical insurance was left to pick up the tab . My loved ones they were dying turned to guinea pigs here and after all it was their lives that were at stake. Sorry, Mom I Love You, But Hey, Hey, What's The Matter > Ball Of Confusion Oh no, and after patching em up The Dr’s said no they couldn't do anything that would take care of their pain. No you’ll get addicted they would say, these are dangerous drugs, while none of their pains ever did go away. Most pain killers are drugs, that put you to sleep, out of sight and out of mind. Pray These things are not really the Dr’s fault they also are under thumb, because of Government, Pharmaceuticals, Laws, Insurance and stuff they are the ones that have control over this. And I will say that some of these Dr.'s they are also my hero's for saving them. Amen And let them deliver it into the hand of those doing the work who are overseers in the house of the Lord: let them give it to those who are in the house of the Lord doing the work, to repair the damages of the house. 2nd Kings 22:5 Brown Eyed Girl .. Glory Glory Gloria G_l_o_r_i-a Id' like to say that all is forgiven but I just can't, no not in this lifetime. Now me being the oldest daughter out of a household of 10 and me being just ten when my mother sustained injuries from a car accident and sued the driver that ran over her. Cocktails At Ten. He had no auto insurance but retained a better lawyer than her my parents insurance should have picked up on this. Wasn’t it really them that should have stepped in and fought and then them that should have helped and or pick up on the loss. Most of my life I have been paying for this and what were my parents making all those insurance payments for? Hum? They really ought to of been hip to this. But wasn’t this all a big mistake and that was all such a long time ago RIP 02. Or how bout in the 80’s when the lawyers that were jailed when they stole the money that my brother would have received, while them loosing at gambling the market and things lost a whole lot of everything. Oh by the way it was mostly the handicap they stole from I hear their released now and I also heard they have a bit of money an partying at the Islands. Anyways his case was obstruction and with no crossing gates and oh by the way the obstruction is still there today. Twenty years stuck in a wheel chair, and now for the past five years he rarely leaves the bed today, RIP 05. I really do pray for them, that all these acts will also be forgiven . Love goes a long way but it does not pay the bills. And Thank you for the help > Mom, Dad, I love you. Immortality, how will I be remembered, heaven an hell???
My Grandmother God Bless her heart >helped eased my
burden
when she taught
me how to do most everything then sometimes she would
take
me away.
Little did
she know her husband was a jerk.
He molested me every
chance that he could
jut
because he just took
.
I would have never embarrassed her or myself with
this, it wasn’t
until they were both dead,
did I say
I was
Sorry,
I should have learn sooner about this,
in reality
I should
have told her straight out and maybe she
would have thrown his ass out
and maybe she would have found someone
that would of
truly loved her. She was a very beautiful woman
inside and out.
And I guess
it is my dumb ass luck cause I still do try to fashion myself more to
her likings. I want to say this though,
to lie to yourself is a grave mistake and it's easy to do
so, forgiveness that comes if you earn it.
I kind of look at a
lie
like this; he did this, she did that,
and
judgment
is used as an excuse for the reasons why!!!
And just how good are we at it?!!! Good and Evil,
its in us all,
and oh boy this is a heavy one if you can sea it.
Judgment is not necessarily mine or ours and it's really none of my
business, but I wonder now that I am older that if I had did or said something/anything
about this forbidden ground, would she have believed it ???? Anyway a lie is a lie and we might get away
with it with some people, but my conscience tells me that the lie
would come back to haunt us and the last 10 years of his life (My
Step Grandfather) well he spent it with multiple sclerosis and his last
five years he was bedridden??///. I figure he had plenty of time to
think about asking for forgiveness.
Me I am just glad
that my Grandmother passed before she got stuck taking care of his
dumb stupid ass#@$%# though I do really do miss her.
RIP 1984 . I
guess I was about in my mid twenties at her passing, I don't think
that she ever knew that he was like that and then again there was
a lot of grandchildren and she love us all and with such a creed.
And
if any of this kinda stuff had happened to anyone else, nobody
else was taklin'.
and now at the age 46 close to a half of a century later
I got to admit that this kinda of stuff is pretty sick. Permanent
damage!!!
Was I guilty maybe even a little embarrassed myself, hell
yea
subconsciously guilty "a special love" and now what was it that I was looking for in
my life? Would my love be able to keep me alive? (Sex for sex that would be
another thing and not until I was much older and consenting. But as a kid
introduced into this kind of stuff at such an early age and oh boy
yes a special kind of love and oh no and oh my gosh my entire life questioned
now because of this kind of abuse? Damn I was a child and I
didn't even know any better hum? guilt? And me myself
now that I have dwelt on this a little bit longer/better
because of confronting it.
Because when I did figure it out, that it was wrong
I avoided him on any and all occasions, uncomfortable to say
the least, I hid from him and as a child blindedly led astray lost and alone and
I think the deal ended up
with
being that I was gonna tell on him if he didn't leave me
alone.
Dumb huh? But this is just the beginning of the silence because I
never ever did learn to let things out after that,
silenced and also alone to deal with it myself. Which ended up
being the way that I dealt with a lot of things in my life and I guess no one
could/would really notice or recognize this as a victim thing well
not until looking into the eyes of their own children. And then say nope not my kid!!! No spaces in between?
And
I'd
guess
you'd
say,
My Girl Angel Without Wings and if you only knew Life Is A Carnival ??? They can't teach you everything in school well what is for real in just about most instances anyways, because some parents just may get offended for the fear that those fears will over come you . Understand that??? huh??? I do!!!! And I think about the fear, is it the fear of, or is it the brain washing in the form of what one would find acceptable as to what one would not and I guess it would lead to what one was taught. And damn if Hitler wasn't able to lead a whole damn country on a killing spree with persuasion and so on in defining the word manipulation persuaded too, sucks!!! After all it was my life anyways. What are the odds on this ??? Buy the time I was 28 I had been molested, raped, robbed, beat-up and left for dead and this is no fake. The victim thing I never pressed, one might say > this is only my take, and another might say what a dumb ass she is. Hell, I’m not so sure where I went wrong, but I have these things to remember, they happened to me. This my story and it has only helped to make me strong . Yes I am still here singing my song, so go ahead and please find comfort in me . You can take that shit and shove it up a tree, you will always find someone worse off than you, and now isn’t that comforting. And all at the same time mean while we still don’t get it, it is our own people here that are suffering, and where is there any logic or comfort in that. And where do we go with the knowledge of knowing that? And just where did our tax dollars go to today? ?????????? And how come we are still buried in debt. It wasn’t the schools, budgets and things, hey now lets try and get a new levy, hey we really need it right away. I'll Take My Chances working with out a net!!! off track, but I'll get back!!! Buy the way I vote yes to these levy's the children shouldn’t have suffered because of the bureaucracy that we continue to sustain. The Country now run by suits that rarely ever sees the side of Blue Collar life. And out of all of those lottery tickets, who's the real loser. Your just feeding another legalized tax! Take that money to the school your children are attending, be done with these quick get rich schemes. Any bean counters out there for this, I see these tickets there all over the place, we won't go into bingo casinos and things. What are our losses? I here gambling is an addiction.. Ohio, 191 million to the lotto, read and understood, November 11, 2002. Don't take my word for this, I'm only weeping, oops repeating. Money from this was to go to our schools, well that's what it was approved for anyways. Now they want to boost the economy and legalize gambling, slot machines and things turn it into a little Vegas so everybody will want to come and spend their money you see. Funny huh??? Not really!!! Just Like a Pill !!! Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me ill. Pink Sorry about that. Now I'm back on track, with a drug store on every corner and the new improved FDA we now have become dependent on pharmaceuticals as part of the everyday. What ever happened to apples and oranges the once famous One A Day? And while the practice is still practicing for the sake of humanity there is still all this red tape. The Bankers the Lawyers the Government, Charities and Doctors now all have this (small print ). Sticky situation, didn’t you read that? This is what I fondly call the revolving door act. And what in the world is all this stuff for? Is it in the pursuit of increasing humanity or the job market? Anyway I believe this is all here to stay. Witch Doctor Bing Bang Walla, Walla bi/g bang??? Ouch!!! It is more common to see the Doctor even if it just for a dose of medicine a $50.00 doctor fee and another twenty and up for the drug, a drug for anything everything, it a sickness you see. Never relating the fact that one should be accountable for there own stupid acts. And all the while the lawsuits are skyrocketing. Hey now, I can deal with an ear ache a fever the flu, stitches and bleeding they have gloves for that. Fevers you can run cold water over your head, hold it their for as long as you can. This will also get rid of a killer headache. And for Babies its, luke warm to cool. . A cold sweat it's a virus, it's different, there are no cures for this, you have to flush it out, use water, and as much of it as you can get. I think God did this back in Noah's time? Was it just eight people that survived? I heard He flushed the rest of em out!!! We already knew it that, that was just part of the Q, 4 hours of waiting in the waiting room. Now is this to justify the cost of the bill as we receive 15 minutes of treatment only to find out they have something we need. By the way I have not been able to afford health insurance in more than 4 years. Maybe its me that needs ADS “Attention Deficit Syndrome” quick someone please sedate me. Any way's my one brother and I are now employed through an agency to pick up the works as a result of these accidents, my mother no longer able and brother bed ridden. While the agency retains the funds in the sake of our ass. God forbid we make either Mom or my brother feel guilty for this. But its the worry, the grief, despair and bitterness that I feel because it is my husband, kids, house, bills, that is going unpaved. And as my life continues to go up in smoke who is to blame, Sunday - to - Sunday 8 days a week 3 hours a day. We won’t talk about what really comes into play, but that’s okay, I would have done it for free anyways, and I had been doing it for years before I ever did get paid 2001. It’s the ideal that hangs over my head, fraud and bullshit, don’t do this and don’t do that, like a dependent could really survive with all this crap/ the rules that they have are so constraining that when you do come back from the war and or if you are handicapped you will find that their is no help for you in this area to survive independently without your family . It’s all one more big bag of red tape. Vet Administration or Visiting Nurse Association thank you, but please check into this. Now the ideal that out of $3,400.00 a month the agency receives. The people doing the work, time an hours receives a small portion of this. I figure about $1400.00 a month after taxes , and to add to injury , no benefits, vacations, or holidays, now that’s something we really don’t need. Auto expenses you have to figure that out for your self. M y 21 hours adds to about 140.00 a week. Love The One Your With Luther Vandross And as the old saying goes, it is easier to hurt the ones you love, why > because you can, and because of the issues, I hold my tongue. Well most of the time. I call it tiptoeing around the house. I am only guilty of loving too much, sometimes that sucks big time !!! Talk about walking in someone else’s shoes, I wouldn’t have done this kind of work for this kind of pay, I guess I was forced into it my brother and mother needed assistance today. The aids that they sent out did what they were told. I’ll give them credit for that but with their increasing health issues they needed someone that would be there everyday. There was a lot of no calls, no shows. Survival I cant blame these angels that did come out to the house, they are also trying to survive and barely able take care of themselves, and then adding the responsibility of taking care of somebody else. I had two other clients for about 7 months and I'll admit it was killing me, everybody got more out of me than me. That's okay I'm learning, and I'm sorry to you too. I guess I was just a little bit to busy trying to take care of all those other things that I didn't have a clue as to what you as a family and non family member were really going through. I wish I could have been there sooner for all of you. You are also the hero's that nobody sea's and your drowning in this stuff, along with the rest. Pray The agency for the most part is just all a big act, they really don’t know me and when they do send their people out to check on my brother and me to see if were doing our job, whom do they ask him or me ? I can prove this if you really wanted me to. And to the Agency if you’re lucky you can hire the family, they’ll pick up the slack. I do also hope that they'll be forgiven for this and I pray for them, I hope it never happens to them. Though I do hear that they are doing some good works, I do doubt that they have the full story Oh by the way the agency doesn't lose anything for no calls no shows or call offs, redundancy, they still get paid, and I am really mad at that!!! Hey Mom do you ever miss me? I love you Mom, but I have to go. I'll see you tomorrow twenty minutes, to get out the door ugh smiling . Door #One Or Door #Two we all know what #2 means! Hey'a hey'a hey'a hey Hey Hey Good Bye, I'm not ready for good byes! Stairway To Heaven Re-versed, funny huh, I wonder if they had seen that coming??? My Fathers Mansion my Mothers house!!! Up Up And Away ??? What was I suppose to do let the system up and carry them away. My Mother and Father had worked hard all their life for their house, and I could never have lived with myself leaving them, knowing the shape that they were in. Now you see regret, disappointment and now dismay. I did it and now I’m working for the Agency, and this also has a whole new meaning to me, under thumb because of the state and their charities. Non-profit ought to be given a new name rob from the poor and give back to the rich. They got machines to cover there ass. . Do you really believe Satan is coming with horns and a pitch fork . And I guess I had better stress this one point here just for a minute because a independent Home Health Aid in Ohio can make a full wage without the assistance of an agency for anyone excluding a family member, then they have to be hired. Oh boy, I wonder what the percentage of family employment is on this?? Tell me now do you really think this is fair?????????? We won't go into mothers with sick children, and or children with sick parents, who do you think would do a better job if they could afford it. Cut out the middle man and control it. I'm sure they could come up with a more reasonable and cost effective solution to those family members that are willing to do the work without forcing them to go broke while their at it. Is this just me am I thinking to much? I'm only guilty of loving to much!!! Anyways I'm just adding this here because this is what burnt me up enough to get this book started in the first place.!!!!!! How many years did I do this caring stuff?????????? I guess I really didn't get all that serious until my own children were born but I can honesty say, I got a good strong 15 years into it with sincerity but if I were to count back to when I was 10 it would be a lot closer to 34 years that I got in. You see I had to learn a lot at a young age , mom spent two years in a wheelchair, hell of a woman if I might say and I can see that a lot clearer now with my increase of age. Survival she had 7 surviving children to take care of and protect and I was mostly willing to help her, me being a girl an all, and some of my brothers that was a different story so as the story goes I can honestly say that nobody else really wanted to do it. I'm lying of course because there were many and it wasn't just me with all the work but just how many people do you really know that know what to do with a handicapped person and probably easier mentally on myself to just do a lot of it all by myself, that is if you can understand that one. And as the agencies they were getting the funds and the credits for some of the work that I had done. It was me that was there for them when they needed it and I wasn't even hired or paid. I really didn't figure this out until the paper work started to pile up then I had to take notice. While them hiring finger print friendly persons with TB tests to get them started oh you can see N.D.s Home Health Care Assistant 25 years quad care experience $7.50 a hour Nov.2001. N>D> Senior Care Specialist $8.00 an hour 2002 excellent employee .Who's fooling who, if the agencies had been doing what they say they would do, there wouldn't have been any need for me to be there in the first place. Blind on this, but presently awakened, and to those in charge of this please forgive my forwardness, I would not want this type of deception to happen to another, it hurts when you wake up to it all!!! I'm sick of love but I'm in the thick of it all. Dylan No I am not negative here, I am very grateful for any help and support that I had or that I could get. Hum??? But I am done with this for now as with the loss of my brother 2005, 28 years quadriplegic, my plate is now clean and my conscience clear Butt, Butt, Butt I Ain't Gonna Let Sleeping Dogs Lie S hallow Water and Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap AC/DC and I've already rung a hole and it's dug real deep. Oh by the way, pray for me and I'll pray for you too. Now most people don’t seem to have any problem with cleaning up waste after their pets but when it come to a human, a person who cant do this for themselves they turn up their nose and say they can’t stand this. I guess it’s much easier once one has had a child to understand this, to some the miracle of life can bring a new perspective to this. By the way there are ways of handling this with out that much smell. Do you not know the embarrassments about this, and do you really have to make it even worse than it already is. I really hope nothing like this should ever happen to you. And if you are a handicapped person I also hope that you will get mad, but please do it nicely. I am working here to help us all out, and I'm really sorry if I have offended you personally I'm really not trying to, please forgive me. Any ways while we are on the subject of jobs, drugs and shit here. Here’s a little ticker for you. Cocaine and Heroin blows out of your system in just 3 days, pot takes three weeks and at $100.00 a pop this drug testing stuff is a travesty. I hope all my friends who I partied with way back when are still stuck in their same jobs. I think it was 1999 that they really crossed over the line. I am not supporting drugs with this statement but I believe that this is a invasion of privacy, humiliating and at the same time, time consuming what's your offerings. Don't most these employers have at least a thirty to sixty day watch period before allowing employees into the union. If the person is not fit for the job, get rid of their ass. Why should we all be punished for this? Keep going cause I'm not done with this just yet. Farther On Down The Road there's more to be said. Further Down The Road They call them the Diamond Dogs Bowie need I say anymore beware of the Diamond Dogs??? Oh boy, I'll get back to this too, but right now I have other things I want to say. I have one sister and six brothers 7 of us are still alive, but you wont hear me talk much about some, in reality they are depending on me. They sleep well at night knowing my bother, sister and I take care of most of the needs, isn't this our job after all. By the way I don't hate them, these are the choices that they and I have made, who am I to say that they are right or wrong or not doing anything at all, we are all different, so I quit suffering . This one I give to God. Amen My one brother the one closet my age is right along with me on this carrying thing, oops caring he is what I would call a saint. Code Blue he was dead 3 minute after the doctor said he was okay. By the way, he said he seen nothing but black. It must have been the stress, my other brother s and everybody else is pretty much always depending on him. My only sister who lives further away is also giving her time in various ways, she also died way back when only to have the Dr’s bring her back again. You can think what you want, even I wouldn’t want to be stuck in my shoes, but then again I guess I’m lucky I’ve never been dead, though I am surprised, I am still living.
And When I Die
and when I'm dead and gone there'll be one
more
child born, in this world to carry on.
Id Rather be Blind kidding Etta James forget me knot's just Bury My Body The Animals Oh by the way I don’t trust the FDA, Health Care and or Industries anymore the Government I'm not so sure. Anyways the whole setup needs and update. This is my life and if there is anything wrong with me, I don’t want too know/no one is practicing on me. But when I take my last breath please someone pull a bottle out and get drunk do it for me. Have a party, especially if I unexpectedly inexpertly just fall over dead . I wont have anything else left to Bitch about. Don't get to tongue tied on this, I'm more afraid of the living than that of the death, but go ahead use my spare parts, have a swap meat use what ever you want. God knows I wont be needing em wherever I go, so go ahead and use em. And I'll be done gnashing my teeth and I guess that would be a blessing to me. To My children I am sorry I should of known better!!!
Once upon a
midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary So by the time I was 23 I had experience almost every drug ! Heroin was a fear and I never let that get a hold of me/. THC nearly took my life more than twice, spray cans damn!!!, dumb ass shit, didn't even like the stuff. That porcelain god that I prayed to when I drank to much and promised I'd never do it again, boy that was ruff, why was I doing this kinda of stuff??? I was a nice kid, but I was also tuff not mean, but tuff. I had six brothers, I had to live up to something. Boy!!! what was I proving??? Damn wasn't I Tuff !!! I can't say that it was all that ruff and on most occasions I did control it. Party but do it sensibly. Its been a while now and I do know the consequences??? Yes I was willing to kill myself to prove that I was tuff and those that stood by me and watched, well they were right in there right along with me Blind Mans Bluff. I cant begin to count the # numbers that die from this kind of stuff its that last hit that will kill ya. I could do the math, but I don't even think I want to get started. Am I just as bad if I see this stuff and do nothing about it??? I can't control it, but I can say something about it. Oh by the way I have always admired those that had not gotten hooked up into cigarettes and God Bless em this is my biggest rebellion. I know that I'm killing myself with this, but like anything else I am learning to control it. I find that if I have a little control over some things, then I am much more happier with myself. I know its hard to say no when you are searching for freedom but the heart tells the truth on this one!!! Who are we helping or hurting???? And ~ No ~ this just may be the freedom word we are all seeking, control with in ones own self. What is acceptable in ones own personal life??? Do you really want bad things happening to you? Hum??? Regression yes, but if I had not experience this kind of stuff would I have not been able to inform you on such.. Now you see, you can find a blessing in just about anything??? smile And today, I can see some of these kids and even some adults too, still hung up on this stuff and sometimes I just feel like crying. Anyways I don't know if I 'm lucky for not getting caught, dead, or out of control with it, they could have slammed me in some prison and hid me away. But in all honesty who and what was it that I running away from in the first place? (The Set-Up) Non Violent crimes should not result with prison. Ronny, I know it was a trumped up charge oh boy how much more time you got left? Do you ever get to see your children? Oh I guess their adults by now, my how fifteen years goes by? Lord knows we are all doing our time just breathing. And I guess if you cant understand that maybe you can't/don't see those dark cloudy pillows in the sky . What is ever done with this type and those toxic chemicals when they could have cleaned up some of these parasites with a common dish soap. Hum? I'm going to say it here, and I hope that they don't pull it off the shelf but Palmolive Original > kills fleas, lice, ticks, mosquito's, ants, all them blood sucking creatures, just add a little water and then again when it rains it activates again killing those eggs that may have been missed. Funny huh? But I know this because I have watched them suffer. Just my luck I guess, I stumbled onto it while washing my screens that poor cricket I wish I could have save it. Any way's, I don't want anything sucking the blood out of me. The drugs that they distribute for your pets for these parasites, just once and my dog went into convulsions I was done with this. even though I do use a flea collar . By the way Palmolive does not harm the plants, birds, vegetables and things. I've been finding these dead birds all over the place, what do you think these sprays are doing to us? I still wash my dishes, laundry and the kids hair at least once a week with this soap, it works for me. Hey lets go open a land fill, we really need the property, location means everything. Do you ever see any live birds around this, remember the coal miners. Bird in a cage just how many flew away. Recycling paper, cans and plastics do your part to keep the world clean. And for you lazy one's out there please keep your garbage in your cars keep it off the street. Who's got time to clean up after your butts, not funny. Crazy On You Heart You see since I've quit my factory job I devote my time to those who work. oh boy and oh no, No they can’t do that, you know they have to go to work. And as I continue running all over the place and doing all those little things????????/ they get a decent paycheck and sleep and now it is my name that is now dirt 24/7. Mad, Madd, Madder. Mad Hatter its a tea party, Hum/Alice in Wonderland.
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Hayes He died drunk
one mornin' Alone in the land he fought to save. I thought about this though and there is just one problem here. I pick up the slack due to the loss of my Father yet there is no allowance of authority allowed out of me. God bless my Dad, all he had to do was say “ Oh Shit! “ and that was pretty much the end of it. As a matter of fact, with the use of just two little words all of us paid attention to him. He had the authority this was taught to us by my Mom, she used a switch or whatever else she had in her hand! God Bless her heart! I know why she did it. I only have two and their pretty good at driving me crazy, though I do try very hard not to vent my frustrations out on them when they are bad. It is their father their really afraid of, and I think this is the way it should be, but never to an extreme. Moms get the blame when children aren't listening, I let my children have it to easy you see, its all my fault. I'll take the blame, who's kids are these any way's, Please and Thank You. I plea for no hatred an pray for common sense, we are all accountable for our actions. I hope they know that I do these things because I Love Them. I also know that I do not own their mind, I can only try to teach them.. Lord God help me. Love should never be a prison..... I need some help here. Bogged down with who's wrong who's right. I hate all these decisions, mind tape. I don't know if I am right or wrong? I try to embrace those that I love, and this may be the real thing that is killing me. Children should honor their mother and father, please what the hell are all these 911 calls all about? Spare the rod spoil the child, rhetorical, and when what I think doesn't matter anymore hum??? Am I suppose to let them run around like little heathens? I know little has been said about punishment on this site, but I just want to bring this one home here real quick. Prisons we all have a since of guilt, right and wrong and we should all trust it. But when the guards lock the doors your name has now been corrupted, Damn!!! And the Cops these days they are getting use't to dealing with some of the scum of the earth, look out!!! I would be a little bit more than nervous and its only gonna get worse! I would expect, oops, respect all to think of safety first, but because of bad behaviors can you really blame em anyone for being a little bit more than nervous. LIVES ARE AT RISK Busted guilty or not scary and its Protect and Serve keep the peace. And now sad but true these spoiled children that our generation has brought up. They are coming soon,\ to a neighborhood near you. I ain't gonna say nothing about lying and stealing I've seen enough, how bout you? Bang Bang - The Song Pop/Kraal They say do it right the first time, I do hope my name is written in The Book. "The Book Of Life" Go back to Desolation Row finish up with Never Let Me ASR Internet Search Engine Google Yahoo
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