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Welcome to Spendthrift and foolish, beaten like a mule Cotton
mouthed... so confused... stumblin' like a fool Hold me up... I'm
sinkin' low... I got... one shot... so come on girl let's go Little Feat RIP The Blues Don't Tell it All The Crystal Ocean Shake, shake, shake, come on shake me down and round, Shake shake, shake, come on shake me around and around and around... Shake, shake, shake come on shake me down Yeah The Mission Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness Peanut Butter Dreams Pisces Iscariot Smashing Pumpkins The Giant Pumpkins, Mom and Dad are footing the bill for this, Santa Claus, The Easter Bunny, along with the rest. "Oh God," how could you ever trust us. I question myself!!!??? Three times thou shalt keep a feast unto Me in the year. Exodus 23:14 The way I understand it is that there are to be three celebrations and with all three we are to seek presence with God. That sounds simple enough to me. Now I'm going to tell you what I think about Christmas, stop now if you don't want to hear it!!! Commercialism and whose appetite are we appeasing What a bunch of phooey, its like we don't even have enough respect to get the date right??? How much disrespect do you think God will take? Deception !!! (Adornments) I don't even want to go into the rolling stone here, but I don't think that there were any bunnies or any eggs around it and St Valentine day it was a slaughter. Holloween, I'll just use my imagination, and yes I do know how I spelled it. And I am sorry about that if I have offended you but I have lost my innocence with this and my imagination has also been altered, especially if its a lie (Biblically distorted) and when they (the children) they catch on to this, they still grow up and pass it on to their own children hum, and now isn't that interesting.? Anyways I'm putting a stop to this and as to my children I hope an pray that they will thank me, ND 2002 I'm not going to hell for this kind of dumb BS, I don't care who's hearts were appeasing. Get over it!!! Jack and Jill went up the hill to fetch a pail of water Jack fell down and broke his crown and Jill came tumbling after. yup Jack be nimble Jack be quick Jack jump over the candle stick??? ouch!!! quick !!! Jumpin' Jack Flash The Rolling Stones Back Door Man The Doors And it's and ever increasing mess out there and when is it
unhealthy to play in dirt. Now we lock them away in order to protect them!
Don't smile at my kid, I don't trust you. She's doing this he's
doing that, while I'm still wondering??? I am supposed to be able
to trust them. But then when the fires Bastardize by the greed of those mean people that just
take, and all the hands that are all tied, even after the circus
show acts. How many questions do you have to ask. And how many
times do we have to ask them, to get to the truth of the story and
then after that, whom does it seem were protecting? Busted!!!!! We
have to make a decision here right, are we willing to sacrifice
our Children and their minds, for the sake of our
own consciences. While we are paying for civil services everyday
off the sweat of our back, only to find that every body's hands are
all tied. Who's watching your Back??? I know this, been their done
that. What really does come to play is a fear and oh boy it's a big
one. What are you going to do, let a kid be
you, huh? Are
you kidding me you can fool mom she doesn't know,
all she can do is try to warn them of
everything. You love them, Trust that comes if they earn
it. Screwing
up shouldn't be a part of this, it hurts,
(learning) but never living, breathing, Ouch! this is no life at all
> fear and when will you ever ~start~ to listen? (hear
that)? I want to protect my children with
every ounce of energy that I have. Who would be suffering?
Life is tuff enough and while we
continue to cage them in for their own safety > their
rebelling, via Revolution. Oh a
lot of this deals with earnings and what neighbor hood you
are living in, and what community services you are attending. Ah
yes, I guess we haven't left to much time to be part of that,
that's sneaky whose fault is this? Mom get out of the Kitchen you
better start working. While we don't get it , it's TV and Video thats raising our children.. Oh and
Dexter I know your smarter than me, and to my darling daughter you
better quit messin up. Your going to give me a nervous break down,
I ain't gonna blame this on mid-life crisis. Sweet
Child Of Mine Guns and
Roses
Patience Said woman take it
slow Lullaby Creed yes to my children you are special, because you have earned it, now please take over where someone else left off. Thanks You'll Never Find a love like mine. Runaway ??????? Who? Them, Me or I ? huh!!! Eight hours a day make that nine if you want to count driving? Hum? Something's on hold till the clock says you can go back home clean up that house and rear up them children, don't forget you gotta feed em huh did somebody say something about husbands oh wait a change of pace and some different shoes for this one, oh yea she's a Material Girl Madonna Poppa Don't Preach I'm in trouble oh boy I am surprised at this thought though 1+1+1='s 3? add another one that will make 4 ? = ? > And I am just lucky that my babies they are still living after all these years. Believe me when I say I have tried to be a good wife and mother, any ways if you think that I have enjoyed the worry and the grief that I did suffer at the hand of someone else raising my children while I was out there working to make a better life for my children, you are crazy. Grandmothers are great but there is a certain amount of lost authority. I asked you nicely, and sometimes its easier, quicker to just do it by myself. But who is it that I am really hurting? I guess I should say that I rob from them every time I give it away (make em do it anyway) and this one is really a lot harder if you choose to do it this way, but probably more rewarding in the long run, influence is a good one for this and just how do you handle it? Anyways, I try not to be to aggressive with this delegating thing by nature and maybe it's me that should just hush my mouth. We'll just live in a pig house, which one, the brick is square its hard to fit things in, the straw it burns, the sticks they break, kind of like The Three Little Pigs except there is all this luggage and the reflection is solely on who? And how come we don't do something about this? How come there isn't any union for this? There ain't nothing better than Moms cooking. Yea sure right marry the right woman, yea sure right, you better get off your butt and help, you would if you really loved her think about it. Charles don't quit. God Bless. NRa The Ten Commandments Be faithful and watch your house > that is the example that Moses left on me > miracles, the power of God with the use of just one stick funny huh?? yep And as they continue to disarm this great land we are at war. It is inside your very own little house. Have you really taken the time to talk to your spouse or children today. Hum? Please don't lock me out, I have things that need to be said. I'm sorry, silence is a killer and it does not always ring quiet. And it will eat you alive when No Body's Listening this is my song its in my head kind of like a chant, wrote it myself. Sometimes, I feel like I'm dieing he said she said they said. Just who has the authority??? You can learn sing it if you wanted to. hum And this may have worked, before the 9 to 5, but I've got a lot of work that has to be done and I'm sick and tired of it all. How much more work do we got today??? I know they used to sweep dirt floors, grind their own grain, work in the gardens and then prayed for rain, but that was before there was all this driving. Oh no I am not one to afford the luxury of illness, well not in a long time anyways. I would get way to far behind with that, I guess I'll just work till the day I die! Amen Silent Night Brain Overload The Masters Bouquet Don't Send Me No More Flowers 2002 edit 2003,2005I sent her flowers RIP 2004 peace Let me tell you about My Great Aunt who is 89, she tells some very good stories, some of how she was taken from her home so she could make bombs for the War. Was she employed? No benefit for this, she no longer lives with me but stays at my moms. This once young vibrant woman that without me would be stuck in some nursing home. Oh boy I hope that never happens to me. Cold but true, no pacemakers for me. Anyways she herself was a big help to me. God Bless her heart she does everything that she can it’s just her memory that prevents her from living alone. 89, 106 God only knows how long she’ll live. I'll take a stand I should have taken care of the legalities sooner, seeing that in 1989 we brought her here from Kentucky, she was having such a terrible time. She was going to live at my moms Damn that lasted about two months, she went out and bought her own house and because I loved her I did a lot for her. Yea sure she gave me a couple of bucks now and again. But to go on she never really had any children of her own and try to hire reliable assistance you guessed it. So now as she has decided to leave her fate to others and thus has made it clear to me that she intends to insure her well being with them also. And Insure is a big word here and I think it all falls down from there, well I was upset yes but what cause it? (I cared) And now her excuse was that I was mean to her, well I said what I said and I can't take it back now.. And maybe it did get a little loud and maybe it did sound a little mean. But that's after you repeat yourself how many time's to find yourself repeating yourself again and again> cause they can't hear you or not paying attention or not wanting to listen hum. (Eye Contact) is a good one for this... And patience I have had plenty and I haven't made up my mind on this just yet cause she did send me a check through my sister. I had to think about it though (give it back to her is what I said) and my sister said over my dead body hum. I could have torn it up, but no I thought about it and I put the check in my checking account and I'm going to send her some flowers, smile. Is she sorry I think so, but it is that last match that makes the heart grow cold and losing trust in someone would be one of em. I think we both are guilty of this but to face each other and act like nothin' ever happened that would be heart breaking to me. Sad I know and I could be wrong, but I think remembering and trusting in those that had stepped in there for you for real, past and present would be part of it and I don't think that I have to go any further with this but I will, conveniences verses moral obligation huh! Speculative adversity then seeing her do exactly what my mother had told me she would do. Selective hearing, Damn, I should have listened. I’m not throwing her away I'll pray for her, this is my Grandmothers sister, but she made her choice and whose to be the wiser. I am not going to go looking back, and I am not turning into a block of salt over it either. Stumbling blocks, why do I always find myself doing more for others than they would do for themselves much less try to or attempt to do for me hum??? Am I alone with this thought??? Go figure she is now in a nursing home 2005 and I had nothing to do with it or with her since the 2002 incident and i am sorry. Cold but true!!! But I am done with this type of guilt trip, I didn't do any of it for profit, in which this is what I was blamed of and all I can say is that this separation has been a most un pleasant experience. The only one that could be forgiven for this type of act would be my mother. > Momma Don't Cry you know I love you!!! There were moments there when my mother God Bless her heart, was dieing . It was also a very difficult time for us all and my patience was dieing also. I was losing my very best friend my mother and at the same time it felt that those and I wont name any names had something to blame ????? reflecting toward me. Why was I even wondering or defending myself , they didn't know. But too cause me to question myself well that was leading to breakdown material. I know we can all do better. There was a time there > when I felt guilty for sleeping. But to have done nothing at all, would I have been guilty of nothing???????????? Damn Cold Night I'm With You I guess when you see life take this part of you, you can begin to see the errors of your own ways and work your best to over come em!!! Mother My/other Y G B Good Bad . God Bless . Garage Basements .. This ones for anyone out there that's been misgivin' You'll have to think about this though. Ask if you want and I'll tell you. 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